Reflections

Sometimes we can look into our World and see a reflection just like looking into the water and seeing ourselves. Today, I had the opportunity to be in a classroom again. It was a class to for learning a new modality in a therapy I wanted to learn. I have to have a certain amount of continuing education classes to maintain my license. I wouldn’t have taken this class if I wasn’t required to have these credits. It was very nice.

A big thing that I realized is the variety of people that were in this class. There were older people and young people, people that had a large amount of experience in the field and some that were still studying for their initial license to begin their practice. Being an intuitive person, I immediately noticed those that were needing attention. There were those that were victims based on the content of their speech volunteering some very personal information to a group upon first meeting them. I am a former teacher in a classroom setting so I am also sensitive to teaching styles. The instructor was very much on stage. She was very knowledgeable however, she was more focused on entertaining the class rather than giving detailed instruction and some heavy knowledge. This was of no conscious effort I must say. She really seems to be a nice person. I realized how different everyone’s experience in this lifetime is. I can only read people from doing my work on myself and being aware of my shortcomings. Either I have done what I saw or am still working on those issues myself. It is like when I first encountered a famous spiritual leader in our popular culture. I immediately said … wow, that guy has some ego. This bothered me until I realized I only saw this because I see it in myself. It seems often a person with fame and fortune or even just a position of authority will have a power struggle and need to be noticed. It always amuses me when an older gentleman in a wealthy part of town I work in will pull up to me in their Lamborghini and glance over at me. It is a glance of … do you notice me? I am important. Look at my vehicle. The thing is I might do that too if I was in their shoes. Even though this guy doesn’t know me, he needs my acknowledgment and approval. I remember one time this happened and I was driving a Prius … an older one at that. Why would he need a Prius driver’s approval?

A few things I noticed about myself today are how many different souls there are out there living their lives in their own dream. I am sure many in that long nine hour class developed opinions about me based on how I dressed, what car I drove and the way I spoke and carried myself. I saw in myself a changed person where instead of hating on others because of perceived shortcomings and assumptions, I actually took a step back and thought about how much our Creator loves each one of them … warts and all. I remembered how our amazing God doesn’t love anyone more than anyone else no matter what they have done in this life or even their past lives. I eavesdropped on conversations during breaks as I was sitting in the room unable to not hear them speak. They spoke of many things in their lives that were unique to them. We all have a story to tell. It was even mentioned by the teacher her opinion on how the younger generations are more prone to being victims and trauma bonding. I don’t know if that is true, but I have seen it. I have seen it in every age however. Maybe it is the media that makes that more pervasive. All I know is I really wanted to volunteer the Wisdom of how we are not our history. We are not our trauma and we are not even our accomplishments. We are a Perfect creation. We are a Perfect spark from the fire of our Creator. We are more powerful than anyone claims and beyond our own understanding. Surely, there were those I probably would want to keep some distance from based on their current toxicity of their small self we sometimes claim. Mostly, I realized that I can love everyone and that every single person is living this life and are here for a purpose. I felt that there was no one that was there with ill intention. These folks were just doing their best and wanting to help others and themselves.

I tend to stay in my small narrow world with only a few wonderful people that I have surrounded myself with. I am used to myself and how I think. I am used to the other friends and how they think. I don’t get into a public setting where I am fairly intimate on a public level and able to see interesting and detailed traits and behaviors of others I do not really know. There were some really fine people and I would even say that there was no one there who did not want to be good to themselves and others. This may be due to the nature of the class and the work we all were doing or learning. If I was in a remedial drivers education class due to getting a speeding ticket from a police officer, maybe that would be different as the nature of those present might have some people of poor character. Nevertheless, those with even ill intentions are still children of God and loved just as much as me and able to make any choice they want to in this world.

I am so thankful for the growth and change that has come into my life. I thought that maybe someone thought about me in a negative way today based on how I dressed or carried myself and if they knew me 10+ years ago, they would think I was a completely different person. I was so angry and negative and judgmental. I would have thought most everyone in that class was inferior to me, yet I hated myself more than I hated them. I was able to not care one bit about what anyone thought of me. I spoke to each person with respect and love and gentleness. This was not an act or focused intention, but just how I am now. I just wanted my light to shine and for me to just be and do. I want to Be Love and Do Love and shine all the Christ-light to whomever I was around like a beacon. I pray to stay open to growth and practice and learn the Wisdom of how to be and do on this wonderful heaven called Earth. I was given a gift of seeing myself today in others and the memory of who I used to be. The Divine Wisdom we are bestowed is so beautiful to see, as well as the way it is transferred to us everyday. Be on the lookout for daily Love and Wisdom and reflect on the growth we have done from our intentions to allow our Perfect True selves to shine.